CAN TIME GOES BACK?

“People Come and Go”

Guess this word really hit me hard. I don’t know if I actually did any mistakes (you see, sometimes we overlooked at ourselves – but I didn’t being informed, so I am thinking that I am doing right. Where actually I really need to be told, so that I can improve myself);

or people are just being people right now (“The Right One” will stay with you  and understand you better in any situation – yet “People” is those who just passing by your way to see what you are up to); 

or this is just an adult thing or world (which as I am being an adult now, this is a normal stage of life that I need to go through like the rest of us – I should stay strong to pass this level). Aha.

Yes, I am a bit disappointed with this – to be honest. It is not that I put high hopes to these people. Instead, I am hoping that all my wish list come sooner than I expected – if not all perhaps one wish out of it?

“The Good Will Come When the Time is Right”

Am I actually answering all my thoughts above? Means, I have the answer yet I am still hurt somewhere?

Hmm.

Can I just go backward to the life that I have before that I don’t have time to think about this stupid issue? Hahaha.

I WILL TRY TO FIND IT, STARTING FROM NOW

I'm the one I should love in this world,
My shining self, my precious soul,
I finally realize it so I love me,
Even if it's a little lacking, it's so beautiful,
I'm the one I should LOVE.

#cubatekatajuklagu

YOU DON'T KNOW SOMEONE'S FEELING. DON'T TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED.

Your word from...
A Maturity.
A Promises.
A Hope.

To...
A Lie.
A Reason.
A Fake.

It is still affected me. ONLY ME.

I Think You are being...

You are being selfish.

You came to me when you are down looking for yourself. You didnt realized that you giving fake hopes and promises to make me stay. When you are built stronger, you leave me alone. You didnt realized your words "I did try my best. I just cannot feel anymore" tear my heart apart.

It is not because you cannot heal yourself. You are actually being selfish to yourself. To us.

Hahahaha.

Ahha

Okay, today I attended one job interview in one Hotel at Bangi.  Nearby my office.

It is a quite smooth interview session, discussing about job scope and all.

Nervous, frankly speaking, yes I did. Well, who doesn’t? 😅

So as the session went, we came to the topic that kinda important as well, even though most of my reading recommended to not touch about this issue, or slightly ask only, which is “Expected Salary”.

Ahha.

But, I tell you, I am not the first one who touch this issue. The interviewer did. Hahaha. 

So he started;

Interviewer: “What is your expected salary?”

Me: “Salary that equivalent with my qualification and experience”.

Oh ya, to add, me myself who look like Secondary school kid come to the office looking for my mom has been working for one year and a month now. Believe it or not? Hahaha. 😂

Cont…

Interviewer: “What is the maximum salary you expect?”

Me: “RM2,***”

Interviewer: “Okay, what is the lowest you can go?”

Me: “RM2,100”

Interviewer: “How much you gain now?”

Me: “RM1,***”

Interviewer: “So, from your lowest expected, any lower than that?”

Me: “Not lower that my current salary. Hehehe”

Interviewer: “So you are leaving with your parents, working area is nearby, and I believe your journey is not that expensive. And yet, you still single. Except if you are married and have 2-3 kids, it can be consider. Your car how much per month? Other expenses? So from your current salary now, you have around RM800 more. Lebih”

Me: “…”

Wow wow wow. Hold on for a second sir.

First of all, kereta aku tak pakai minyak meh? Harga minyak dah la turun naik tiap minggu. Duit minyak dgn toll belum kira lagi. RM800 tolak duit minyak tinggal berapa kerat? Habis tu aku tak da saving ke? Semua aku makan perabis ke? The way he talked just now, like he just immigrated to Malaysia. Haiyo, I feel like want to knock on your head. Hahahaha.

You know what, this is the first time I encounter with such interviewer. My previous experience with job interview session did not touch seriously on salary issue. Yang hini, eh siap tolong kirakan balance gaji.

And the funniest part is, I cannot voice out. Nothing come out from my mouth. Haiya

So now, I do not know whether to accept the offer or not. Deep in my heart ask me to reject the offer. But, my second interview session during lunch hour just now, I said yes. Hahahaha

But, my “Restu” (Ibu Ayah) said, reject the offer. 😖

My Self- Healing

Being positive can mean in two ways:

1) Matured; and
2) Self- healing

WILL 3 WORDS CHANGE EVERYTHING?

Is saying "I Miss You" could change everything?

Feelings, Emotions, Mood, Self Esteem etc

Like "everything"?

If Yes, then I Love You ❤